till the ladies come for tea.
They haven't been in 6 years.
I use to find the process of getting ready enjoyable. I would make a list of all the things that I wanted to accomplish before they arrived. The list would include all the little projects that I had half finished, closets and drawers organized, tasks that needed to be accomplished but had been ignored, and always cleaning. I would clean every square inch of the house.
It was/is such hard work but the end result was always worth it. A perfectly cleaning, organized, to-do-list finished home.
This time I'm finding it stressful. Not enjoyable at all. Almost dreading them coming.
I really wish I didn't feal this way. I want the old feeling back but I'm at a complete loss as to how to get it back.
The lists are made, the time frame set, some of the tasks already complete. But the feeling still eludes me. I find this very sad.
I will push through. The lists will be finished, every last task will be done to perfection.
In 18 days I will be the perfect hostess with the perfect house.
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